mondays and my girl is HOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really can not stand to be away from her for very long and it even drives me nuts when she is at playcare LOL I just miss her and think about her and the thought of someone else taking care of her is really hard for me. I missed the whole baby bonding experience with her and a lot of people take that for granted and think I'm being selfish and overprotective of her. (maybe I am) The point though is that because she was adopted the bonding experience is different. Its hard to explain but what I fear when I see her close to someone else and giving then affection (even though that is TOTALLY normal and necessary for development) I cringe and wonder if she feels like that towards me......... like I am just another caregiver. I want her to have a bond and strength with me like no one else ( I AM her MOMMY !!!! ) any way,,,,, thats my mom beef for the day. So I've made a decision that I am going to cut way back on leaving her at playcare and grandma interaction. I think playcare almost everyday and babysitters on weekends is too much and it was starting to show in her acting out. She was getting angry at me and being funny. So from no on I am going to do most of my workouts from home and take her to playcare for shorter periods and less often. THIS should be interesting LOL
I had a good day yesterday though. I did my morning yoga and WOW burned more than in my cardio!!! It was 299 for yoga and 269 for my cardio. I had a great class though very intense and strong and just in the mode. We had breakfast and then went downstairs and played and I did my elliptical. 60 mins at a mod pace and my heart rate was in high 130's to 140's. We got cleaned up then did our chores and cleaned house. FELT GOOD to stay home and I had so much fun with my babe.....then it was lunch and nap.
In the afternoon I had my iron injection and a mole removed (cancer) to be sent in for biopsy. I am OK about the whole thing .... so for but I am very nervous to see what the report will come back as.
After that we just ran a few errands and came home for dinner.